Some things are best left as they are

This week I had another houseguest.  Yep, I bet you are wondering if I am running a B&B.  The answer is, no, not yet, and no planned houseguests until after the New Year at this point. That is a good thing since I'm needing some "me" time and have to work to get this house in order to move to >>> God Only Knows Where.

My houseguest this week was Jason.  You might remember Jason, as he was featured in my blog from about September '08 - July '09, as we were dating.  I ended our relationship after I moved here (and he had no intention of doing so) and I wasn't moving back anytime soon, if ever.  I do, however, tend to maintain friendships with guys I've dated, granted they do not display psycho tendencies.  He doesn't, so we've remained friends.

When he came to visit me last year over 4th of July weekend, his flight was cancelled on one leg of the trip.  AirTran was apologetic to the tune of one free round-trip ticket, hence his need to use it and hence his return here. 

He and I were talking in June about this ticket and how it was to expire in early July if he did not book something and he asked if he could come down for a few days in October.  As we have been friends all this time, I said yes and the tickets were booked.  He came down this past Wed and left yesterday.

He was the person I have dated the longest since my divorce.  We have a lot in common but there are definite differences too -- just enough to keep things interesting.  He's a great guy and I hope he finds happiness with someone lovely, but that someone lovely won't be me.

It isn't that he is annoying.  It isn't that he gets on my nerves.  It isn't that he's a jerk.  It isn't that he behaves like he was raised by wolves.  No, it is none of that. He isn't, he doesn't, he isn't and he wasn't. 

It is something else.  That indescribable spark that says there is something THERE and that I ought to figure out what that means EXACTLY.  He had my interest and I cared for him deeply but that indescribable spark -- looking back, I can see it wasn't there.

We had a great time this week -- did some driving range time, ate good food, took an airboat ride through the Everglades -- a whole hell of a lot packed into essentially 3 days.  He is and remains a great guy.  Just some things are best left as they are.