Saying goodbye

No, I'm not shutting down the blog.

Yesterday I said goodbye -- to my former life and closed the final door. You see, for the past 3.5 years, my engagement ring and wedding band have sat in my jewelry box, reminding me of broken promises, lost love and my former life.

The ring and band were gorgeous, a big fat diamond set in platinum with a simple platinum band for the wedding band. It was exactly what I wanted and exactly what the Hex bought. Since we separated, I put them back in their original box and into my jewelry box, ignoring them all the while knowing they were there.

On Valentine's Day I walked into Reis-Nichols (a local jeweler) and asked about resetting and restyling them. Why Valentine's Day? Honestly I wanted to test myself -- on the most 'couple' oriented of days, to see if I still wanted to keep the rings. On that day I felt nothing, nothing but excitement at my new life and my choices.

Last week I had an appointment with their head craftsman, Andre. Andre drew up for me the most gorgeous pendant ... a combination of many of their designs. It was beautiful, even if only done in pencil on a scrap of paper. I knew then that it would be wholly mine and one of a kind. I had the rings weighed, along with some gold jewelry I no longer wanted, and received a price for the scrap metal. An estimate was to be written up by Friday.

As you know, I was in LP this past weekend, so I didn't make it back to Reis until last night. It was then that Jon and I discussed details and final price. As he consulted with the designers, I tried on each of them one last time, saying my goodbyes. It seemed like the final piece of my divorce puzzle was finally being put into place.

And in thirty days I'll have a custom designed, one of a kind pendant made with the diamond that formerly graced my engagement ring. It will be mine, finally, and no longer a reminder of what could have been.