Alive.
Teaching one class, attending three of my own. I sleep, I eat, I travel by train, I attend class, I travel by train, ... repeat.
I continue to love where I live and whom I live with :) I am a happy, lucky girl.
I'll blog more in mid-March or in May. My life should be in better condition then.
Love to all ...
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Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Semester One and Done.
Believe it or not, I am 25% through the coursework I need for my Ph.D. Yes, just coursework, dear people, as following the end of that, I'm on my own, researching like a madwoman and attempting to make some new argument that will pass muster with my professors.
So, probably 3.5 years until done. Maybe a little less, hopefully no more.
I've learned a lot this first semester -- including the fact that my time is no longer my own. My past jobs were all busy, lots to do, lots of work outside of 'working' hours but this ... THIS ... is another animal entirely.
I have no free time. Even while I sleep I am working. Sounds silly, yes? Well many many weeks of insomnia coupled with school-related dreams have convinced me that my brain does not shut off as I leave campus or even as I close my eyes. I have been a perpetual ball of stress these past few months. I'm not sure if my stomach will ever un-knot itself. Just thinking of it makes me feel a little nauseated.
For what? I've wanted this degree for so long - thought of it, dreamed of it, wished to make it happen. Now I'm living it and there are days I'm not so sure. I know everyone goes through this at some point (hell, I've been through it in my working life plenty of times) and I know I just have to buckle down and get things done.
So here I am. Today I'm back on campus, just four short days after leaving it for the semester. I returned today to learn about Blackboard, a web-based system that I'll use for my class this semester. Yes, I'm teaching, in addition to taking three classes. I don't know whether this is good or bad, but what I do know is that I'll be busy, no doubt about it. I'll be on campus four days per week. Monday - Thursday. I'll stay up here one night a week (as otherwise the train + sleep + class schedules just don't mesh) and that makes me kinda sad -- but it's okay. It's one semester. I can do it.
I often feel like I'm reciting the train song in my head ... I think I can, I think I can, I think I can.
As for Hoosier Guy, well ... he's learned that my brain doesn't shut off, that I'm occasionally in a blind focus about certain topics and that he has displayed great kindness and patience towards me and my school schedule. I'm glad we are together. He has made this whole transition easier and I know that we will grow stronger because of this.
My family & my friends? I'm not sure they know what to think other than it appears I'm busy a lot. Which I am.
Life as I know it -- so different than I expected and still good.
So, probably 3.5 years until done. Maybe a little less, hopefully no more.
I've learned a lot this first semester -- including the fact that my time is no longer my own. My past jobs were all busy, lots to do, lots of work outside of 'working' hours but this ... THIS ... is another animal entirely.
I have no free time. Even while I sleep I am working. Sounds silly, yes? Well many many weeks of insomnia coupled with school-related dreams have convinced me that my brain does not shut off as I leave campus or even as I close my eyes. I have been a perpetual ball of stress these past few months. I'm not sure if my stomach will ever un-knot itself. Just thinking of it makes me feel a little nauseated.
For what? I've wanted this degree for so long - thought of it, dreamed of it, wished to make it happen. Now I'm living it and there are days I'm not so sure. I know everyone goes through this at some point (hell, I've been through it in my working life plenty of times) and I know I just have to buckle down and get things done.
So here I am. Today I'm back on campus, just four short days after leaving it for the semester. I returned today to learn about Blackboard, a web-based system that I'll use for my class this semester. Yes, I'm teaching, in addition to taking three classes. I don't know whether this is good or bad, but what I do know is that I'll be busy, no doubt about it. I'll be on campus four days per week. Monday - Thursday. I'll stay up here one night a week (as otherwise the train + sleep + class schedules just don't mesh) and that makes me kinda sad -- but it's okay. It's one semester. I can do it.
I often feel like I'm reciting the train song in my head ... I think I can, I think I can, I think I can.
As for Hoosier Guy, well ... he's learned that my brain doesn't shut off, that I'm occasionally in a blind focus about certain topics and that he has displayed great kindness and patience towards me and my school schedule. I'm glad we are together. He has made this whole transition easier and I know that we will grow stronger because of this.
My family & my friends? I'm not sure they know what to think other than it appears I'm busy a lot. Which I am.
Life as I know it -- so different than I expected and still good.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Ridiculous. Just Plain Ridiculous.
I've had a million thoughts in my head since the last post. I mean, really, probably two million, at least. I just haven't had the energy to post. Not on Fridays, not on Tuesdays, not just whenever.
I'm reading something like 1000 pages a week (which, if you add it up, over the course of the semester I will have read at least 16,000 pages or roughly ~ 4,000,000 words.
So maybe I'm out of words here. For now. I hate that.
Life update: I'm good, life is good, loving my existence. I love the commute into Chicago now - probably because it is so very peaceful and relaxing. Sure, it takes awhile, but all I have to do is: a) find a seat and b) give my ticket to the conductor. This isn't rocket science people.
Life with the Hoosier Guy is fabulous. Truly lovely. I was nervous (of course) when we first started talking about it, scared to make that jump but even more scared not to. Here we are, nearly two months in and I just feel like my life is damn near perfect. I'm happy I made the move in with him.
Other than reading (which I do constantly), I go to class, work at my graduate assistant job, commute and sleep. On occasion I do things with friends when we can all find a mutually agreeable time for fun. This can be difficult but I am trying.
I head back to Florida in a few weeks with my Grandma. She's moving there with my Dad and I want to make sure she arrives safely. This should provide some fodder for the blog, fo' sure.
Dear readers, I miss blogging. I hope to get back to a regular schedule soon. Or maybe I just OD on blog posting when school is out for the semester. Who knows?
I'm reading something like 1000 pages a week (which, if you add it up, over the course of the semester I will have read at least 16,000 pages or roughly ~ 4,000,000 words.
So maybe I'm out of words here. For now. I hate that.
Life update: I'm good, life is good, loving my existence. I love the commute into Chicago now - probably because it is so very peaceful and relaxing. Sure, it takes awhile, but all I have to do is: a) find a seat and b) give my ticket to the conductor. This isn't rocket science people.
Life with the Hoosier Guy is fabulous. Truly lovely. I was nervous (of course) when we first started talking about it, scared to make that jump but even more scared not to. Here we are, nearly two months in and I just feel like my life is damn near perfect. I'm happy I made the move in with him.
Other than reading (which I do constantly), I go to class, work at my graduate assistant job, commute and sleep. On occasion I do things with friends when we can all find a mutually agreeable time for fun. This can be difficult but I am trying.
I head back to Florida in a few weeks with my Grandma. She's moving there with my Dad and I want to make sure she arrives safely. This should provide some fodder for the blog, fo' sure.
Dear readers, I miss blogging. I hope to get back to a regular schedule soon. Or maybe I just OD on blog posting when school is out for the semester. Who knows?
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